Sometimes I think about the things that are being/ have been said about me in the ministry organizations that I have left. How it's "sad" and "she could have done great things for the kingdom" or "what a shame" and how I've most likely been prayed about. Then I start thinking about the amount of … Continue reading hah

If I’m being honest, this pandemic has me thinking a lot about a spike in deaths. But not from COVID-19, from suicides. I know those who suffer from a mental illness have felt the isolation from reality and the things we love. I’ve certainly felt it. I was mid anxiety attack earlier tonight and decided … Continue reading Thompson Park

I think we will all remember the spring of 2020. The confusion. The worry. The feeling of being scared of what it is to come. What is to come of the world when this is all over? Will this make us question our safety? Or our well-being? Honestly, I hope to just cherish everything a … Continue reading This, too, shall pass.

In 9 days, it is March 7th. A day I dread. A day I am prepared to grieve. A day that I don't want to exist. My grandma passed away March 7th, 2018. I've been healing. I've been grieving. At times, I didn't do this in the healthiest way. In the past two years. I've … Continue reading 9 Days

conversations became shorter laughter became faint time between responses became longer your voice became harder to hear I will always remember that moment the tempo slowed the rhythm broke the silence became louder you stopped catching up you stopped asking you stopped you all stopped there's a space that echos your presence it reverberates off … Continue reading the fade

There are moments in this life where we stop and we realize how minuscule we are as human beings. We look around us and we start to believe that life would simply "go on" as usual if we were to cease to exist. I believe that is false. I believe that is the darkness slipping … Continue reading Grandeur

If I am being honest, I have been staring at this page for a long time now. And metaphorically speaking... seven years. It has been me attempting to gather the courage and the correct words to convey this. So, here we go... During my sophomore year of high school, I began to notice something about … Continue reading here we go

Recently I was asked by someone, "do you have a good story?" And by that she wanted to know if there was anything "happy" that I could write on here. The question really made me think and it honestly really challenged me. As I sat and analyzed my life, ever since 2012, there has been … Continue reading good chapter

TRIGGER WARNING FOR THOSE WHO STRUGGLE WITH DEPRESSION AND/OR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. I believe there comes a point in everyone's life where the pain doesn't seem to be subsiding. Whether that be physical or mental, it won't seem to let up. Everything keeps replaying over and over in your mind. It is like an endless loop … Continue reading you’re not stuck and neither am i

an old thing I wrote...   I see you. I see the way your hair falls against your face. I see the way your face is intricately aligned to create you. I see what you are not able to see. I see your heart. I see the pain. I see your heart hidden behind years … Continue reading I’m right there