It has been one year. I remember sitting in class and receiving the text from Monica, telling me you only had a few days. I remember getting up in the middle of class and walking to my car. I remember walking into my house and falling to my knees as Lizzy asked me if I … Continue reading uneven odds
Cross Conference
From January 2nd to the 5th, I had the privilege to attend the Cross Conference in Louisville, Kentucky. This conference is dedicated to the Nations and missions. I, along with 11 other people from my church, went to this conference. (The church actually paid for us to go). I honestly didn't know what to expect … Continue reading Cross Conference
“the doom loop”
I was listening to a podcast today and I heard this term. It echoed throughout my being. This "doom loop" basically means being trapped in a never ending cycle where you go from joy to doubt to depression to reassurance to joy again. I feel like this is so true in my life. My grandmother … Continue reading “the doom loop”
2018: a mixture of hell and redemption
I already know that this might be one of the hardest posts I have written but stay with me on this. 2018 has been remarkably hard in many different ways. There has been grief, sorrow, joy, but also transformation along the way. March 7th On March 7th, my grandmother lost her short battle with stage … Continue reading 2018: a mixture of hell and redemption
Momentum 2018
Momentum is a conference held for high schoolers that churches come to from all around the country. Many different speakers are there along with the Jordan Howerton Band. It is an exceptional conference. I'll just say this now. In the days leading up to Momentum, I did not want to go. I just didn't want … Continue reading Momentum 2018
I shouldn’t have flushed ’em
Last week I made the decision to flush my antidepressants down the toilet and that wasn't the smartest idea, even though my doctor said I would be fine. (If you want the back story on why I did this, read my previous post that is titled, "flushed 'em"). The next seven days that followed flushing them, … Continue reading I shouldn’t have flushed ’em
Flushed ‘Em
I flushed my entire collection of antidepressants. I started medication when I was a junior in high school. So, that was almost five years ago. My brain has been medicated for five years. The first medication I was on was Prozac. This is a very common drug to start people out on for depression or … Continue reading Flushed ‘Em
relapse
relapse: a deterioration after a period of improvement When most people think of a relapse they think of alcohol and alcoholics. But the concept can mean many different things. Wether that be alcohol, drugs, junk food... like it literally could be anything that you are trying to stop doing. I recently had a relapse. My … Continue reading relapse
Still Here
When I was a junior in high school, I struggled deeply with depression and anxiety. From August 2013 - December 2013 was one of the hardest times of my life. It started with losing my best friend. She meant the world to me. She was also the person I went to for everything. Up until … Continue reading Still Here
Three Months Later
For 20 years, I fortunately never had to deal with someone close to me passing away. I always knew that my grandmother passing away was going to be one of hardest, if not the hardest things I would ever have to go through. It has been almost three months since my grandmother has passed away … Continue reading Three Months Later
Ashley White 